On my absence from Twitter… (@xcarrielovato)
Hey guys,
So, if you follow me on Twitter (@xcarrielovato), you know that I’ve taken a Twitter break. I wasn’t very explicit on why I did so, and as the situation for me is slowly improving, I’d like to take the opportunity to explain why.
Lately, I have been neglecting a lot of aspects of my life that I feel are extremely important to me — God, my family, schoolwork, etc. I feel like I’m always rushing to get home so I can sign on to Twitter and Tumblr and Facebook and see what’s the latest…and in that rush, I forget about schoolwork, I forget to realize that I need to bond with people I know in real life rather than people online because the real-life folks are the ones who are going to stick with me.
I love the celebrities that I support, and I will continue to support them, but the Internet can be a scary, dangerous, and addictive place. It’s a place that has essentially captivated my attention and energy and focus to a point where my relationship with my family and the way I treat them and speak to them has become so awful that I have literally become an undesirable outsider in my family. My grades, which used to be straight-As, have dropped to Bs.
Unfortunately, I lack the self-discipline to stop and say, “You’ve wasted enough time on the Internet. Start working.” I don’t have that kind of discipline, which I’ve always wanted to have. Recently, my mom stopped me and said something along the lines of, “What’s happened to you? You used to be a sweet, shy, caring girl, and now you’re just this obnoxious, big-mouth, rude, impertinent person who only cares about her social life and doesn’t give a damn about her schoolwork, which is what will count in the future, not whether you’ve got friends or if you love celebrities.”
That comment really made me halt in my tracks and think. I realized that I have become a completely unrecognizable person from the hardworking, quiet, shy, and intelligent person I used to be. I was dumping my intelligence for Twitter friends, for acting like a crazy-obsessed fan, for a bunch of people online that I didn’t know anything about. Anything at all.
It’s been a difficult thing to stay away from the Internet. I’ve really exercised a lot of self-control and have been throwing myself 200% into working hard in school, being a better daughter and family member, repairing my relationships with friends and family, and just having some “me” time. I’m also trying to do more exercise and become healthier in that sense, although I eat super healthy now.
It’s been a hard decision to make, but I think I’m officially leaving Twitter. I’ve already de-activated my Facebook account. I will leave my Tumblr and Twitter up, but I won’t be using either of these any longer.
Trust me when I say that this took careful deliberation. I have really enjoyed getting to know all of you, and it has been such a blast to chat with some people from all around the world who share the same interests as me. I have truly, truly loved being a part of the online fan communities and fanbases and supporting my favorite artists alongside the rest of the amazing people on Twitter and Tumblr.
However, I really would like to devote more time to re-establishing my life and becoming a better person, and spending time on the Internet really takes away a lot of my productivity.
Thank you all so much for being so wonderful to me, and I will never forget the amazing conversations, experiences, and people I’ve met here. Thank you, and God bless you all.
Lots of love,
Brittany (@xcarrielovato, www.demetriajonas1.tumblr.com)
